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I am married to a wonderful man I have 3 cats who brings out the best in me and 4 wonderful dogs that I love so much.. these are my 7 children :)

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  • Sunday, August 29, 2004

    A Daddy's Poem

    I got this in an e mail.. and of course.. I cried.. but Thought I'd post it here...


    Dad's POEM

    Her hair was up in a pony tail,
    her favorite dress tied with a bow.
    Today was Daddy's Day at school,
    and couldn't wait to go.
    But her mommy tried to tell her,
    that she probably should stay home.
    Why the kids might not understand,
    if she went to school alone.
    But she was not afraid,
    she knew just what to say.
    What to tell her classmates
    of why he wasn't there today.
    But still her mother worried,
    for her to face this day alone.
    And that was why once again,
    she tried to keep her daughter home.
    But the little girl went to school
    eager to tell them all
    About a dad she never sees
    a dad who never calls.
    There were daddies along the wall in back,
    for everyone to meet
    Children squirming impatiently,
    anxious in their seats
    One by one the teacher
    called a student from the class.
    To introduce their daddy,
    as seconds slowly passed.
    At last the teacher called her name.
    Every child turned to stare,
    each of them was searching
    for a man who wasn't there.
    "Where's her daddy at?"
    she heard a boy call out.
    "She probably doesn't have one,"
    another student dared to shout.
    And from somewhere near the back,
    she heard a daddy say.
    "Looks like another deadbeat dad,
    too busy to waste his day".
    The words did not offend her,
    as she smiled up at her mom
    and looked back at her teacher,
    who told her to go on.
    And with hands behind her back,
    slowly she began to speak
    And out from the mouth of a child,
    came words incredibly unique.
    "My Daddy couldn't be here."
    because he lives so far away,
    But I know he wishes he could be,
    since this is such a special day.
    And though you cannot meet him,
    I wanted you to know
    all about my daddy
    and how much he loves me so.
    He loved to tell me stories,
    he taught me to ride my bike.
    He surprised me with pink roses,
    and taught me to fly a kite.
    We used to share fudge sundaes,
    and ice cream in a cone.
    And though you cannot see him,
    I'm not standing here alone
    "Cause my daddy's always with me,
    even though we are apart.
    I know because he told me,
    he'll forever be in my heart"
    With that, her little hand reached up,
    and lay across her chest,
    feeling her own heartbeat
    beneath her favorite dress.
    And from somewhere in the crowd of dads
    her mother stood in tears,
    proudly watching her daughter
    who was wise beyond her years.
    For she stood up for the love
    of a man not in her life,
    doing what was best for her
    doing what was right
    And when she dropped her hand back down,
    staring straight into the crowd.
    She finished with a voice so soft,
    but its message clear and loud
    "I love my daddy very much,
    he's my shining star,
    and if he could, he'd be here,
    but heaven's just too far."
    You see he was a fireman,
    and died just this past year
    when airplanes hit the towers,
    and taught Americans to fear
    but sometimes when I close my eyes,
    it's like he never went away.
    And then she closed her eyes,
    and saw him there that day.
    And to her mother's amazement,
    she witnessed with surprise
    a room full of daddies and children,
    all starting to close their eyes.
    Who knows what they saw before them,
    who knows what they felt inside.
    Perhaps for merely a second,
    they saw him at her side.
    "I know you're with me Daddy."
    to the silence she called out.
    And what happened next made believers
    of those once filled with doubt.
    Not one in that room could explain it,
    for each of their eyes has been closed,
    but there on the desk beside her,
    was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose...
    And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
    by the love of her shining star
    and given the gift of believing
    that heaven is never too far.

    A Special Friend

    This post is about a special friend I have.. his name is Toby Overstreet! Toby and I met about 13 years ago.. in Scranton PA for the JR NAD "Mini" conference.. He and another girl from KSD which is Sarita Johnson (Now Harkness) were the only 2 that I felt comfortable being with..

    Toby, Sarita and I became friends fairly quickly.. Toby and Sarita was there representing KSD while I was there representing ENCSD.. after our departure there.. I had kept up contact with Toby for a very very short time.. I called him at KSD maybe 1 or 2 times then we lost contact until 1 time after I had gotten married to David, I had gotten a post card from Toby.. it really really shocked me to hear from him.. I didn't even think he knew I had moved to Tn.. but anyway.. that was about 8 years ago then again we lost contact :( UNTIL I had gotten in touch with Sarita once again!!! I had asked Sarita about Toby and Sarita got us back into contact once again..

    Toby is now living in VA and I'm so glad that we are still in contact and yes thankfully the internet has kept us in touch.. if it wasn't for Sarita getting us back into talking to each other or the internet.. I'd probably say that Toby and I would not be talking to this day..

    hehe.. Toby probably remembers this.. once I called him at KSD and revealed to him that I had a crush on him.. but he as gently as he could tell me he wasn't feeling that way But i'm so glad that he was willing to go past that and continue being friends with me.. he is such a special person.. :)

    Toby, Thanks for being such a good friend to me!!

    Here's a picture of Toby!!


    Hmmm......

    Ok.. I'm off the songs for now .. so you're getting a break ;) but I wanted to post this lil' Ziggy Comic thing.. makes me think..

    We lead such a busy life.. work, family, friends, daily activities.. that what's gonna happen when everything comes to a sudden stop???



    I know what happens when my life totally changes.. but what happens when I lose everything?? Job, family and friends, everything that I'm so used to?? what is gonna happen?? It sure does make me stop and think.. what would I do??? Do you know what you would do??


    Words To Go By...

    This song is from back in the old days.. I like both country and the old 70, 80's songs and this one is from that time period.. If those who really sit and think a lot of these songs have so much meaning to one person or another.. but this one is about Cherishing the Love you have.. because you really never know when the time comes that one will not be there the next morning...

    I've learned all to well the pain and heartache to have one person one day and the next they're gone.. maybe not for good but out of my life and this makes me think how I should've cherished what I had then.. I took it for granted that this person would be in my life forever and one day everything changed.. so Now.. I cherish what I have day to day and never take it for granted..


    "Cherish"
    Kool & The Gang
    Music & Lyrics : K. Bayyan - J. Taylor - Kool & The Gang

    Let's take a walk together near the ocean shore
    Hand in hand you and I
    Let's cherish every moment we have been given
    The time is passing by
    I often pray before I lay down by your side
    If you receive your calling before I awake
    Could I make it through the night

    Cherish the love we have
    We should cherish the life we live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the love we have
    For as long as we both shall live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love

    The world is always changing
    Nothing stays the same
    But love will stand the test of time
    The next life that we live in
    Remains to be seen
    Will you be by my side
    I often pray before I lay down by your side
    If you receive your calling before I awake
    Could I make it through the night

    Cherish the love we have
    We should cherish the life we live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the love we have
    For as long as we both shall live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love we have
    We should cherish the life we live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life

    Cherish the love
    Cherish the love we have
    For as long as we both shall live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the love we have
    We should cherish the life we live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love

    Cherish the love we have
    For as long as we both shall live
    Cherish the love
    Cherish the life
    Cherish the love

    Angels Among Us

    After I had my miscarriage in June of 2000.. this song has had a stronger meaning to me... I know that my baby had gone to be an angel I know she is still with me guiding me through my days good and bad.. and when I hear this song.. it will make me smile because I know.. Jesus and my little angel is with me every second of the day...

    "Angels Among Us"
    Song by Alabama

    I was walking home from school on a cold winter's day
    Took a shortcut through the woods
    and I lost my way
    It was getting late
    and I was scared and alone
    Then a kind old man took my hand
    and led me home
    Mama couldn't see him,
    but he was standing there
    But I knew in my heart,
    he was the answer to my prayers
    Oh I believe there are angels among us
    Sent down to us from somewhere up above
    They come to you and me in our darkest hours
    To show us how to live
    To teach us how to give
    To guide us with a light of love
    When life dealt troubled times
    and had me down on my knees
    There's always been someone there to come along and comfort me
    A kind word from a stranger to lend a helping hand
    A phone call from a friend just to say I understand
    Ain't it kind of funny at the dark end of the road
    Someone lights the way with just a single ray of hope
    Oh I believe there are angels among us
    Sent down to us from somewhere up above
    They come to you and me in our darkest hours
    To show us how to liveTo teach us how to give
    To guide us with a light of love
    They wear so many faces Show up in the strangest places
    Grace us with their mercy
    In our time of need
    Oh I believe there are angels among us
    Sent down to us from somewhere up above
    They come to you and me in our darkest hours
    To show us how to live
    To teach us how to give
    To guide us with a light of love....

    "I just wanna be mad"

    For those who know me pretty well.. Knows that I have a pretty bad temper after I've held my feelings in for a while and eventually I lose my temper and things get said or whatever..

    Those who KNOWS me will know that pretty much I'll get over what is bothering me after I've lost my temper but I will never stop loving and will never leave.. so please just be patient and I'll come around!! REMEMBER.. I DO LOVE THOSE WHO ARE CLOSE TO ME!!


    "I Just Wanna Be Mad"
    By: Terri Clark

    Last night we went to bed not talking,
    'cuz we'd already said too much.
    I faced the wall, you faced the window,
    bound and determined not to touch.
    We've been married seven years now,
    Some days it feels like 21.
    I'm still mad at you this morning,
    Coffee's ready if you want some.
    I've been up since 5,
    thinking 'bout me and you
    and I've got to tell you,
    the conclusion I've come to...

    (Chorus)
    I'll never leave,
    I'll never stray,
    my love for you will never change,
    but I ain't ready to make up,
    we'll get around to that.
    I think I'm right, I think you're wrong;
    I'll probably give in before long.
    Please don't make me smile,
    I just wanna be mad for a while.
    For now you might as well forget it,
    Don't run your fingers through my hair.
    Yeah, that's right,
    I'm being stubborn.
    No I dont wanna go back upstairs.
    I'm gonna leave for work,
    without a goodbye kiss.
    But as I'm driving off,
    just remember this:

    (Repeat Chorus)
    I just wanna be mad for a while.
    I just wanna be mad for a while.
    I just wanna be mad for a while.

    Saturday, August 28, 2004

    Rub my tummy please...

    Here's a cute pic. of the cats that Robert just took a few mins. ago.. just had to share with you guys hehe....

    Rub my tummy please.....




    I ain't moving!!! Find you another chair to sit in!!!


    Take that Camera away from ME!!!




    A very special clown in the community

    I thought I'd post a picture of a special clown in the community.. His name is Bonkers.. and he is a very good clown..

    I met him through the NLF church that I have visited a few times.. but I got his picture through e mail and thought I'd share Bonker's picture with you!! here it is...

    Keep up the great work Bonkers!!



    Just Pictures of animals that I've gotten that are so cute!!










    This picture of the monkey I think could pose as Robert when he was a kid!! HEHEHEHE




    My Sister In Law

    Robert has 5 other siblings.. 2 sisters and 3 brothers.. but the one that I see more often is Jo Ann.. she's the youngest sister but was the last baby in the family till Robert came along..

    Jo Ann lives in the Halls area which is in the Knoxville area.. I love the house she lives in because they had it built themselves and the outside looks soo "Rustic" especially where it's located at.. we have to go around a couple of curves and up a hill to get to her house but it's just soo beautiful, cozy and secluded!!

    She and Robert are soo close I guess because by the time Robert came along all the other siblings were already a lot older and had moved out so he wasn't' as close to them as he is with Jo Ann.. We go to her house almost every weekend usually Friday nights to play cards and chat about stuff going on in our lives, sickness or Dr appts., computer stuff, dogs, work etc. so it's usually a relaxing night to visit there..

    When I mentioned we talk about dogs.. Jo Ann breeds Basset Hounds and since Robert and I have been together till up to now.. she's had 3 litters and I ALWAYS fall in love with at least a puppy or two with each litter..!!! yes I'm a dog/cat lover LOL.. She has a puppy or two that she's trying to find a home for I do believe she still has those 2.. but they are so adorable and they are already about 5 or 6 months old.. anybody know who wants a Basset hound???

    Jo Ann also takes up interest in computers.. she is always learning something new everyday and tells us so we can learn new stuff too.. and I enjoy learning stuff that she has found out.. she learns some stuff from her Yahoo Groups, or from her son who works on computers fixing or rebuilding them.. she is learning pretty good..

    This is a picture of Robert with Jo Ann from about a year ago.. when we first got our new digital camera...



    Well I'm gonna move on to my next Post.. see ya then..

    Friday, August 27, 2004

    My Sweet Innocent Baby Nephew

    Hi everyone.. well I got woken up at 3 AM so I figured I'd get on the computer for a while and then thought well why not go ahead and post the last of my sister's 3 kids..which is Ryan!!!

    Ryan is 5 years old.. In fact just turned 5 a couple of weeks ago (August the 12th) .. do you see a lil' pattern going here LOL.. yep all 3 of my sister's kids were born in August.. Ya think she's trying to keep the family BROKE in the month of August LOL!!!

    Anyway... Ryan can turn someone with a cold steel heart into just a puddle of a mess cause he is just so adorable!! he's got this real dark dark brown eyes that when you look at his eyes you can't even see the pupils in it that's how dark brown it is.. and so when he gives you the puppy eyes when he wants something or if you say NO it's hard to stand your ground.. especially when he lowers his face and says "awwww but I want it!!"

    Ryan was born with Neuroblastoma cancer.. so I know he's a fighter but when you look at him you'd never know he was ever that sick when he was a baby.. He's had to overcome quite a bit to get where he is now.. and right now he's a healthy 5 year old who has the energy that I don't even think Justin and Tori ever had when they were 5 years old.. he keeps my sister sooo busy running after him..

    When I go over to my mom's or sister's.. the 1st thing out of Ryan's mouth is "SANDY!!!!" or "What are you doing here??" and lately he's gotten to where he will ask me "Where's Robert??" which he only gets to see his Uncle Robert very seldomly but he loves it when Robert comes over there with me.. He likes to play with Uncle Robert and talking to him..

    Although sometimes Ryan like any kid will ask all kind of ?'s and drives me nuts with the questions.. once I answer him to his questions he has a question for my answers.. sigh.. the learning mind never ceases!! :-)



    as you can see he loves the camera.. he will smile for the camera and say "CHEESE!!!" he just loves it.. I think it's very rare to catch him not wanting his picture taken!!

    Here's a funny moment with Ryan not too long ago actually.. the whole family went over to the Carver's new house to see the changes that had been done over the last few weeks since we hadn't (Robert and I) been over there for a few weeks.. and Ryan was soo excited he wanted to show us his room!! well.. when we get in of course Ryan takes the 1st chance he can to get downstairs and says "Sandy... Robert... hurry come see my room" well next thing I heard which I couldn't help but NOT laugh is..."Sandy!! Tori's in my room" but his voice is what changed.. he was whining that his older sister was in his room.. he didn't like it!!! I was thinking.. hmmm now I can see how he's gonna be when his sister and brother's gonna go into his room..
    You see.. this is the 1st time ever that Ryan's gonna have his own room so he's very very very excited but I don't think he realizes that this means he no longer can sleep in someone else's bed with them.. he now will have to sleep in his OWN bed ;) Good luck sis!!!

    I thought I'd also put a picture here of all 3 kids so you can see how michevious they can be together if you'd give them a chance.. this pic was taken in Christmas of 2003 so they've grown a bit!!



    Well guess that's about it.. I could go on and on and on about these 3 adorable sweet nephews and niece of mine but then again.. I might bore ya outta your mind with all these lil' details of them hehehe...

    See ya on the next Blogging Post!!

    Thursday, August 26, 2004

    My Beautiful Niece

    My beautiful Niece is Victoria "Tori" Carver.. and today is her Birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TORI!! Today she turns 11 years old ..

    Tori is the only deaf child that Mary has.. and attends TSD in Knoxville.. She just started middle school this fall and so far is enjoying being in the 6th grade.. Tori is very intrested in sports and has played almost everything that TSD has.. Tori has once again joined the Volleyball team at Tsd for the 2nd year in a row..

    Tori is the 7th generation on my mom's side to be born deaf.. and we are very proud that the heredity has been passed down to her.. and hopefully when Tori has kids that they will also be deaf to pass down our wonderful family heredity!!

    When Tori was still a baby..we'd put her in a walker in the middle of the room and try to get her to walk towards us... and the most cutest thing she'd do until she outgrew the walker and had her balance walking is that she'd put her arms up int he air and 1 of her hands would be "waving" the whole time she'd walk.. it was almost like she was waving bye bye while she was walking but it was just a bit different than waving bye.. but it was just sooo cute.. She eventually grew out of it so it only lasted a short while but that memory stays with us for the rest of our lives.. and we would tell Tori what she did and she just giggle thinking it's funny..

    I just can't believe that my little girl has grown up to be 11 years old..and turning into such a beautiful young lady who I know will make some guy very happy in the future.. :-) I love you Tori.. SOOOO MUCH

    This picture is Tori on her new front porch at the Carver's new home..




    My Adorable Teenage Nephew

    Today I wanna post about my sweet adorable nephew Justin.. wait did I say Sweet??? well ok sometimes he can be sweet.. hehe but he is really adorable and CUTE (hint hint girls!!!) LOL...

    Justin was born on August 17,1991 in Raleigh N.C. I was just 15 at the time and I was soo excited that I was gonna be an aunt for the 1st time.. I remember the 1st time I seen him.. that's when I knew I wanted children.. how many I didn't know just that I wanted children..

    I spoiled Justin so much.. I think I even made some people think Justin was my son.... hey I couldn't help it.. I just loved him too much.. Everytime I got a chance I'd buy Justin everything I could.. especially when they moved to Jacksonville I didn't get to see him that much and I missed him soo much.. so everytime we'd go see him I'd be really excited!!

    Let me go back in time just a bit.. there's a funny story about Justin when he was just a few weeks old.. maybe a couple of months old.. we had this friend Donald Hathaway who was very excited about Justin (he loved Justin as if this baby was his own) and mary had JUST fed Justin and Donald took him and started walking around kinda like "shaking" Justin on his shoulder.. to "soothe" Justin so he wouldn't cry.. well we all warned him about doing that because Justin had just been fed.. and just as we warned him Justin had spit up A WHOLE LOT of formula and it didn't just go all over Donald's shoulder.. it went INSIDE Donald's ears.. just the look on his face was PRICELESS!!!! I only wish we could have had a camera with us to take that picture of Donald.. There are some more stories about Justin and Donald that I can remember and they're all hilarious!!!!

    Justin is now 13 years old.. I just can't believe how time has flew by and he's now a teenager!! I could almost feel myself holding him as a newborn in my arms YESTERDAY!!! Justin of course will be my lil' baby no matter how old he is!!! He is basically MY OWN SON!! hehehe love ya sweetie..

    Here's a picture of Justin that I have...



    Tuesday, August 24, 2004

    Just something to update nothing special

    Well... being as it is at 2 30 AM when I'm online .. my head is still asleep but at the same time feeling sick.. I've been having sore throat for almost a week now and it's the reason why i'm awake and not feeling good!!

    Thankfully I'm taking the day off I've decided just now!! I had told my boss Jim that I was gonna take Robert to the doctor this morning and might be out all day or i'll come after the appt hadn't decided yet but now I have.. I need a break from work!!!

    Work isn't all that bad.. I love it but sometimes it stressful cause we have a deadline to get all our weekly work done by Thursday at noon.. mostly I can be done by Wedensday but only if i didn't miss a day but I worked Saturday so I should be alright.. but still the stress is there when ya know the time is ticking and is running out..

    Robert has an appt with the foot doctor which i'm hoping won't be such a bad appt. because with him being a Diabetic it's a very serious thing.. Then we're gonna go pay one of our bills and then come home and probably I'll be able to run back to bed and sleep!!! hey it's my day off so I can sleep hehe.. It'll be boring though cause I won't be able to see my soap opera but of course it'll be back this Monday :) Gotta love Days of Our Lives :)

    Well I guess I'll try togo back to sleep so I can get up at 6.. Talk to ya in the next post!!



    Sunday, August 22, 2004

    My friend

    This is about a friend of mine that I always think of time to time.. her name is Tammy..

    Tammy and I grew up living across the street from each other when I lived in Wendell N.C. she was only about 8 months older than I am and we spent a lot of time together..

    I remember times when Tammy's mother was sick or taking a nap and her rules were that no one was allowed in her house while she was sick or taking a nap so Tammy and I would talk about stuff through the window screen of the living room.. we would talk about anything that was bothering us, doing homework, talk about boys just about anything that 2 best friends would talk about..

    Tammy had this dark brown hair that was always long.. she was a real thin girl with long legs and I used to always think how smart she was.. it was like she knew exactly what to do everytime something came up!! I was always envious of her hehe...

    Tammy had a younger sister name Chrissy who had blonde hair and I remember how she was always such a pest.. now I know how my sister felt when I tried to tag along with her and her friends LOL!!!

    Tammy's parents bought some land and built thier home.. so our friendship didn't come to an end but it was harder to see her than before of course.. she was moving clear across town BUT.. the good news was when I went to visit my grandparents.. she only lived 1 1/2 blocks away from them.. So I would call her and her mom would send her to meet me half way and we'd walk back to the house.. we would go upstairs to her room and listen to some music and talk..

    As years went by we drifted apart.. by this time my family and I had moved to Knightdale NC and it was harder to see Tammy.. eventually we had stopped spending time with each other and even phone calls never came for each other..

    now we're both in our 20's and she's stil living in NC and last I heard she was married.. my mom had seen her a few years ago and Tammy had just graduated from college.. sometimes I do miss our times when we were younger and how i wish we were back to that time.. we were both so carefree and enjoyed every minute we had to spend together.. soo many memories..

    Unfortunely I have no pictures of us together when we were younger only the images in my head is all I have..

    Thursday, August 19, 2004

    Our Song

    Our Song which is: "Cross My Heart"

    Robert and I took the 1st few verses and used it in our wedding vows.. George Strait who is a country singer made this song and we just absolutely love it and I thought I'd share the lyrics with you..

    I Cross My Heart LyricsArtist: George Strait

    Our love is unconditional

    We knew it from the startI can see it in your eyes
    You can feel it from my heart
    From here on after
    Let's stay the way we are right now
    And share all the love and laughter
    That a lifetime will allow

    Chorus:
    I cross my heart
    And promise to
    Give all I've got to give
    To make all your dreams come true
    In all the world
    You'll never findA love as true as mine
    You will always be the miracle
    That makes my life complete
    And as long as there's still breath in me
    I'll make yours just as sweet
    As we look into the future
    It's as far as we can see
    So let's make each tomorrow
    Be the best that it can be

    Chorus:
    And if along the way we find a dayIt starts to pour
    You've got the promise of my loveTo keep you warm

    This is our special song that we really cherish forever.. George Strait really is a great singer and I love many of his songs..


    Carmel The Whiner

    3rd and last cat I have.. which is Carmel.. now ya probably wondering why "The Whiner" well that's my nick name for her cause she WHINES!!!

    Ever since we laid our eyes on her at the shelter she whines.. meows for EVERYTHING.. which is why I call her Whiner.. of course Robert would for sure dispute that.. and say is NOT true hehe.. but I love to aggravate him by saying'' WHINER!!" LOL!!

    Carmel is not a very friendly cat.. she doesn't hiss at anyone but she always hides when we have company over here.. she doesn't like anyone but Robert... she'll only come to me in the mornings when my alarm goes off and she'll lay on my arm or back whichever way i'm laying at that time.. and when I open my eyes and look at her.. what does she do first thing??? she MEOWS but her meows really do sound like she's whining hehe..

    She is the smallest and lightest of all 3.. she looks like she doesn't eat but she does.. but a VERY PICKY eater.. she doesn't even like cat treats!! she turns her head when I try to give her cat treats.. so she only eats dry food but i've seen her eat when i put food in the bowl or whenever she's at the bowl and I walk by she'll be there eating.. so I do know she's eating but apparently does not gain weight at all..

    She is a very pretty cat with a soft, velvety fur.. we named her Carmel because when we got her.. the color of her fur was like a light peachy color.. at least I think it's Peachy and Robert said light tan color.. but anyway.. that's how we came up with her name.... We got her in Feb. of 2003.. Monkey and Carmel was in the same cage and of course from the same litter.. at least that's what we were told.. Monkey's orange color has gotten darker since we've gotten him so who knows.. maybe same litter but different dad's dunno..

    Her favorite place to lay down on is the top of the computer monitor.. she loves it wherever there's heat.. right on the spot where the sun is hitting.. she'll lay there.. and if there is no sun.. she'll wait till we turn on our computers and as soon as it warms up she'll be right there on top.. she's even slept on top of the DVD player.. i guess since how little she is.. she feels the need for heat dunno..

    I think god was looking down to make sure Robert got Carmel cause those 2 are a match in heaven lol.. they got the exact same personality.. honestly.. they both are picky eaters, both are whiners.. hehe sorry honey but it's true :)

    Well, here's a picture of Carmel the whiner hehe...


    PCOS (PolyCystic Ovaries Syndrome)

    well i'm back home from work so I thought I'd make a post.. I was thinking at work what could I post this evening and thought.. hmm how about PCOS so you all would know if another woman said they had POCS you'd know what they are going through..

    I have PCOS and have been dx'ed with it since around 1998 after my ex husband and I had been trying to conceive a pregnancy for a while.. we were actually trying for about 2 years before i got dx'ed, first it was hypoactive thryoid and I started taking medicine for that.. then I went to a endocrinogist first for my thryoid but when I told her about all the symptoms she said hmmm.. let's do some blood tests and about 3 weeks later she sent me a letter confirming i have PCOS.. so I went back to my ob/gyn who started doing a lot of different medical stuff to see if i could get pregnant.. I even went on the fertility drugs called Clomid and still didn't get pregnant.. well after almost 4 years of trying to get pregnant.. 2 days after Mother's day in 2000 I found out I was FINALLY pregnant.. but unfortunely a month later I had a miscarriage.. I was devestated and of course wanted a baby so badly.. I was Due in Feb. of 2001!!!

    PCOS can do many different things to a woman.. some of them may show NO symptoms of having PCOS and can have children with no problems.. on the other hand there is women like me who have 1 or more symptoms of having PCOS.. and believe me.. I HAVE ALL OF THEM!!!

    Here is some examples of the symptoms.. 1) irregular menstural cycles, 2)infertility, 3) loss of scalp hair (i have that and I HATE IT!!!) 4)excess facial hair or other parts of the body, 5) dark patchy skins on the neck or legs, arms .. there is a few other symptoms.. just can't think of what it is right now lol there's sooo much to it.. but i have had all the symptoms that I have listed..

    Many people especially children look at me and think i'm a male.. until they look me up and down and see i have a purse or something then they'll know i'm a woman.. which i totally hate.. yes I'm very self concious (bad sp) but can't help it.. how I always have been.. but anyway.. PCOS do cause a lot of problems for a woman...

    I am taking medications for my thyroid and also Insulin Resistance due to the PCOS and currently am "semi" trying to have a baby with my new husband.. we're trying on and off.. since he's also having a medical condition that may prevent us from having a baby.. so we may eventually adopt a child later down the road in our marriage but for now.. we're having fun trying for a baby of our own.. and of course I have my sister's 3 kids to spoil hehe..

    Here's a Link you could go to if you are intrested in looking up more info on PCOS.. cause I know i didn't tell everything but just the basics.. and the link is....

    http://www.soulcysters.com/resources.html

    Meet ya at the next Post :)


    My Mom & Dad

    My Mom and Dad are one of the most important people in my lives like most parents are to the kids they have.. but I just had to say that :)

    My mom is Lillian Wynn and she was born on August 5th (not gonna tell what year) hehe.. and My dad is Monroe Wynn and he was born on June 13th.. which is a special day for Robert my husband cause they both share the same birthday on June 13th!!

    My Mom graduated from NCSD which is located in Morganton NC in 1966.. not long after she graduated she got married to my dad. so they been together a LONG LONG time...

    My dad graduated from KSD which is located in Danville Ky in 1958.. he has always told my sister and me a lot of stories of things that had happened in KSD and it was really intresting to know what happened back then when my dad was younger..

    After my parents had gotten married 6 years later they started thier family by having Mary then 3 years later I came along.. and since then my parents have tried thier best to show my sister Mary and me the road of life and to make choices and live with our decisions bad or good.. although they tried to get us to make good decisions..

    8 years ago, My dad had Quadruple heart bypass and we weren't sure if he was gonna make it or not.. but after he came out of surgery it was still touch and go but we're grateful he made it through the surgery.. considering he was going in for a double bypass but when they opened him up and found he needed 5 instead of 2!!! he also has lung problems from smoking for soo many years and now he doesn't smoke.. he stopped 8 years ago and i'm glad he did.. we begged him for years to stop but almost dying made him stop!! WAY TO GO DADDY!!!

    My parents were there for me when I was going through my divorce from my ex husband.. when my ex left I didn't have a home, car, job, or even money.. and my parents made sure I wasn't just tosssed outside.. they let me live with them for almost 2 years while I went through my divorce, depression, and trying to make sense of what I was gonna do then.. I eventually got a new car that I could drive and i went back to school but not for long.. I just couldnt' concentrate on anything so I left.. it wasn't long after that I met Robert and moved out of their home but if it wasn't for my parents I have NO idea where I'd be right now.. they have supported me in every decision I made.. even if it was the wrong one they were there for me trying to guide me back to the path I had strayed away..

    I love both my parents and I really don't know what I would do without my parents OR my sister.. I have such a great family and I'm proud to be a part of it :)

    well it's time for me to go to work so guess I'll stop for now.. but i'll be back to post soon..


    Monday, August 16, 2004

    about My sister

    Well what can I say about my sister?? hehe.. probably A LOT!!!! but I'll keep those deep dark secrets to myself and just tell ya about my sister that I'm allowed to tell ya huh??

    Well.. first off my sister is exactly 3 years and 1 day older than me.. I always tell her it's her fault that I was born in November instead of December like my mom was orignally told by her doctors but that's a totally different post ;)

    She is just a wonderful sister who has helped me out through a lot of things in my life growing up through all the rough obstacles I had to overcome and even when I grew up and became an adult and had a lot of pain and heartache from going through a miscarriage, seperation and divorce from my ex husband she was right there along side of me helping me through it all.. which I've probably wouldn't have made it if it wasn't for her (or my mom either).. she always gave me the encouragement and support that I needed even when I failed in my missions she was still right there encouraging me which I'm just grateful for!!

    She has 3 children of her own a Son who will be turning 13 tomorrow!! and a daughter who will be 11 next week and another son who is 5 years old (he turned 5 last thursday) geesh sis.. you sure love having kids in August hehe.. Keeping us broke huh?!?!?! She is such a wonderful mother to those 3 kids and tries her best to give what she can to them.. and I'm soo grateful she has those 3 for me to SPOIL and send back home to rofl.. Love ya sis..

    She lives in Clinton but soon will be moving to Oak Ridge Tn where she is building a 4 bedroom house!!! I'm soooooo Jealous!! hehehe.. but she will be further away from me and that just absolutely SUCKS!!!:( right now I live in the Clinton/Norris line and here she is moving away to Oak Ridge which will be about 18 miles from me.. I know that's NOT far but still.. Far enough for me!! wont' get to see her as often... i know sis u're gonna go and say.. and when do i ever visit and i'm 9 miles away now?!?! LOL

    here's a pic of my sister at my wedding!!





    Monkey

    Hi Everyone!!

    well here it is 8 pm and decided to post a new message tonight :) this time it's about my other cat.. Monkey!!

    He is also another one we rescued from the shelter.. oh heck we rescued all 3 from the shelter but anyway.. he's the only male cat I have and he'll show ya he's the "KING" of this house as far as it concerns him.. he pushes the girls around and pretty much LOVES attention..

    Monkey is a orange/white cat with the most beautiful eyes I could ever seen in a male cat.. He loves to come and be petted and will lay on your lap and just has the loudest Purr anyone could ever hear or even feel when he's around.. He's also a BED HOGGER.. he won't let the girls sleep on the bed but yet he can.. and always sleeps with me whenever I'm bed for the night or for a nap.. He's such a BIG baby hehe..

    I'm gonna attach a pic of him don't worry hehe.. He's a mischevious cat.. the pic i'm gonna attach is what he did one morning while Robert was putting dishes away from the dishwasher and Monkey decided he was gonna explore and jumped into the cabinet hehe..

    Well.. here's the pic and I' ll post some more messages later.. but the post of the other cat i'll wait a while.. I wanna post about my friends and family next :)



    Saturday, August 14, 2004

    This is about my Cat Squeekers :-)

    This is Squeekers.. She is a gray/black/tan tabby cat that we rescued from the Oak Ridge Animal Shelter.. She was a christmas Gift from Robert to me on our 1st christmas ever together in 2002..

    She is the oldest.. she is not a shy cat but also not the most friendliest one either.. she only comes to me or robert when she wants something.. she'll let me pet her if She is laying down with me.. otherwise her body language tells me to LEAVE her alone hehe.. but she is sweet and is loveable cat..

    Her name Squeekers actually came from my nickname that robert had been calling me .. which was Squeeky well I wanted to name her after "me" and I had actually picked the name before I even went to the shelter to see which cat we were gonna get.. but she responded to the name very well..


    Well that's about all I can say about my sweet Squeekers.. and i'll be adding a picture to this too :-)





    All about me

    well here it is Saturday morning.. and i'm soo lazy hehe.. ok enough of that here's something about me..

    My name is Sandra Ann McMillan (maiden name is Wynn) i'm 28 years old and i of course am married to a wonderful guy name Robert E. McMillan we have been married for 11 months.. next month is our 1 year anniversary. ..

    I have my parents who are Monroe & Lillian Wynn and I have a sister who is 3 years older than me her name is Mary and she is married and has 3 children, 2 boys and a girl.. and I also have my maternal grandparents who are still alive and thier name is Arthur and Mary Wilkinson. we all live in Tennessee.. in diffrent parts of course lol.. my parents and my sister and her family and I live in Clinton while my grandparents live in Knoxville.. but i do gotta mention this before my sister has a anxiety attack that i don't mention this hehe.. My sister and her family will be moving into a brand new home built with the help of Habitat for Humanity and they will be living in Oak Ridge Tenn. which is from where I live about 20 miles from where I live.. and I am soo happy about her having this chance of having a real home of their own instead of renting..

    I have 3 cats.. their names are Squeekers, Monkey and Carmel.. Squeekers and Monkey are my babies.. while Carmel is spoiled by Robert and is basically HIS cat lol.. we got all 3 cats from the Oak Ridge Animal Shelter... Squeekers was my christmas gift from Robert and then we went back and adopted Monkey and Carmel who are sister and brother and we just couldn't decide which to pick so we got both.. so that's how we came with 3 cats.. although I still miss having a dog and I will have one eventually.. I'll post a picture of them when I figure out how to do that hehe..

    I work for Weigel's a small chain of convience/gas station store although I work in the Corporate office located in Powell Tn, I love my job there and have been with them for 8 months... although I feel like I have been there only a few weeks.. But I do love the job.. I work mainly Monday through Fridays.. with some Saturdays that i'm having to work..

    Now, I guess I could end this with how I met my husband.. couldn't I?? ok well here it is.. Robert and I actually met online!! actually.. he found me.. I had been divorced for about 8 months and a friend of mine told me why didn't I just put in a ad with matchdoctor.com so I did.. and about 2 weeks later.. Robert saw my ad and decided to e mail me.. and I found he only lived 9 miles away from me!! so I e mailed him back and about after 2 or 3 days we started talking on the phone.. which was Nov. 7th of 2002.. a couple of days later we decided we'd meet and go on a date .. which we did on a thursday that same week.. and we went bowling on our 1st date, and we went out to eat and then back to his home to watch a movie.. we watched Titantic and then he brought me home.. He asked me if I wanted to see him again and I said yes.. so we went out on more dates and I think at that time my parents were thrilled that I was actually not in thier house all the time hehe.. I went out more often.. but then I had decided maybe Robert wasn't the guy for me.. and was trying to think of how to break up with him.. but then came the faithful day that told me he was right for me was on Dec. 1st.. we went to Dollywood for the deaf awareness day and i got to meet my friends that i hadnt' seen in a long long time.. but anyway that night we came home and we went to bed.. (yes i slept at his house on the weekends)I woke up about 2 hours later in a lot of pain.. so I asked him to take me to the ER and he did.. he would NOT leave my side at all.. and finally after 5 hours the doctor came back in all sarcastic was like well show me exactly where your pain is .. by this time i didnt' like this dr at all.. and I showed him and he sent me for a gallbladder U/S and within 30 mins. he sent another dr in to see me.. they wanted to know if i wanted surgery right then or go home and make an appt to see the dr and then schedule a surgery and I wasn't that dumb.. I told him NOW!!! and I looked over at Robert and he was actually crying!!! I was like.. everything will be ok it's just a simple surgery.. well he even called into work and stayed at the hospital.. he met my mom and sister in the waiting room and he was there in my room when they brought me back.. he stayed there till late into the night just making sure I was ok.. he just wouldnt' leave.. i even had to ask the nurse to make him leave!!! after that I knew I had a man who really cared and loved me..

    On Dec. 30th .. YES I did this... I asked Robert to marry me.. and he said Yes.. we had set the date several times.. I wanted April 17th 2004 but after his divorce was final in Jan of 2003 he didn't want to wait till 2004 to get married.. so we changed the date to Sept.. then it was Nov. then back to Sept.!!! Finally we got married Sept. 20th of 2003 at my parents house with approximately 30 guests... then after that wedding we went to Gatlinburg TN for a short honeymoon.. we are planning to take a week long honeymoon to Vermont hopefully next year!!! I'll add picture of robert and me below!!!


    with that.. I guess I've bored ya long enough hehe... Talk to ya next time


    Sandy